Unclear.
When you start everything is unclear. You grow up and your environment is trying to make everything clear for you. So you better be lucky to be raised by some clear folks. Live in a clear neighborhood. And be put on a clear school. Go to a clear University. Find a clear company. A clear religion(I am from before 2000). So on the way to adulthood(does it ever end??) there were some points in my life that even I was beginning to think it all was clear. But at this moment I must conclude that they were only brief times in rather blurry memories. The truth is that it is all Unclear.